Twinkle Toes

A cup of tea

2012-02-05T21:32:00.002-07:00

It feels like this year has been off to a rocky start. Maybe not, but that is how it feels. There has been change galore, and some upheaval as far as my routine goes.

I have felt restless, and when I am feeling this way, it is important that I sit back and really think about the reasons. It's important for me to consider where the restlessness might take me, and the impact it will have on those around me. Because if I choose to forge ahead, without considering what I am really doing and why, I could leave disaster in my wake.

There are always consequences to our actions, (or inaction) and I cannot stress enough the importance of thinking things through. It is a lesson that I continue to learn, and I hope that one day it comes easier. With practice, discipline and hard work, mastery will come.

Not the end, but the beginning

2012-01-29T12:21:00.001-07:00

Congratulations to all the new Sifus! A night like last night is truly a night to remember - it marks the beginning of your journey. You have set a high standard for yourselves, and your hard work, dedication, and discipline have set the pace for the next group.

It's important to remember where you started as a white belt, and to keep that path in front of you. You guys have grown in so many ways, and I find it so inspiring. Keep up the fantastic things you have been doing!

I want to thank everyone who made last night possible. Without all the help, and expertise it wouldn't have been the fantastic event it was. Your efforts did not go unnoticed. And another thank you to everyone who made our silent auction possible... You all make me proud to be a part of Silent River Kung Fu.

And now back to your regular program, while I sit back in my recliner, sicker than a dog.

Change

2012-01-22T11:26:00.001-07:00

There has been some significant change in my world lately. For the most part, I can take change with a grain of salt, but there were several changes at once lately that were more challenging than I thought.

The major stuff has been taken care of at this point, but obviously there will be some residual effects to get through. What I noticed though, was how my lifestyle helped me to get through. Daily pushups and sit ups, and the planning for our Chinese New Year banquet have been vital in keeping my sanity.

As long as I have Kung Fu, I have a strategy to deal with change.

It's here!

2012-01-08T20:22:00.009-07:00

My project is now live...the only part I need help with is your stories. My project is a new blog to document all of our defining moments in our Kung Fu journey. Please read, and please add your story too. (right now, you will have to send it to me until I figure out how to let you post directly).

http://wontonsoupforthemartialartists.blogspot.com/

(Unfortunately I couldn't get the link to work so you'll have to copy and paste it into your browser)

Thanks!

A New Project

2012-01-01T18:14:00.002-07:00

It's coming very soon...I will post it on my blog here, and on kwoon talk. I am excited about it, and hope you will be too. I hope to have it up and going by the end of this week...

Happy New Year.

A title?

2011-12-25T19:24:00.001-07:00

I accidentally forgot to blog last week. Oops. A couple of things that I need to keep in front of me - routine is very important, and there is nothing like the pain one feels after an incredible workout. Routine is key to so many things. It helps us develop discipline, so that if and when the routine is interrupted, it isn't a huge obstacle to continue training. Your habits are already in place, so that your routine can be adjusted without much damage. It is also important to keep a routine over the holidays when everything is so busy, so that when we get back to our normal schedules, we aren't starting anew. If you have to start anew, it can be very overwhelming - so it's best to just keep doing what you always do. For example, pushups, situps, walking, and/ or eating habits. As for pain after an awesome workout - enough said. Awesome!I hope everyone has a wonderful holiday season....I will see you on January 1st for 1000 pushups!

My UBBT year comes to an end...

2011-12-11T20:24:00.000-07:00

As my UBBT year comes to an end, I find myself reflecting on my successes and failures. Not everything went the way I had hoped, however I now have some habits that will continue to help me on my journey. I am still moving forward though, and am busy making plans to continue on my journey. I have a project that I am putting out there as of the new year, and am trying out a new weapon. The UBBT was a wonderful tool, and I am thankful for the opportunity to be a part of this years team. It was fantastic to do this with such an engaged group of individuals, and I hope that those who embark on this journey next year will find the same amazing journey that I have had.Here's to finishing big!

Mental challenge

2011-12-04T15:28:00.001-07:00

This past week I have had a few challenges, but I am fortunate to have something to help keep me going. Yes, my children and family are number one on that list, but Kung fu and my family there are a close second. Keeping harmony ( and peace - although that can be a hit or miss) at home, and running the couple of kids classes/ prepping for the Chinese New Year banquet have been fantastic tools to keep me going.

We had our monthly Black Dragon grading yesterday, and watching the kids receive their new belts never ceases to inspire me. It's even more awesome when there are kids from our advanced class. Way to go guys!

Yowza

2011-11-28T19:41:00.001-07:00

I have said it many times, and I am going to say again. I love teaching. I love the challenge it provides and how it forces me to think outside the box.

On a daily basis, I have to try to find a balance between all the students, and at the same time try to inspire them. You don't want to sacrifice the whole class for the sake of one student, and you don't want to risk losing a student while you focus on the whole class. That is where it gets tricky, and that is why I depend on my fellow instructors. But even with the extra eyes, ears and intuition, we always run the risk of having a student fall through the cracks.

So that being said, I love what I do.

We can make a difference

2011-11-20T15:45:00.001-07:00

Last week Monday, the kids and I brought the donations they had collected to the Mustard Seed in Edmonton.

It was all their idea to collect donations and therefore my job was to support them. Last Monday, we dropped off 7 bags of donations at the Mustard Seed's distribution centre, and then went over to their main building for a tour. It was very eye opening and made us very thankful for what we have.

We are working on a small video to document this project and I will post it when it is ready. I feel this project has had a big influence on the girls - they have seen poverty up close and have witnessed how they made a difference.

Their empathy for others has started to shine through - on their own, they also volunteered to shovel a driveway this winter. I am sure this one will be a bigger challenge with our long winter, but I know they will experience the payoff of helping someone in need.

It doesn't take much to make a difference.

This and that

2011-11-13T18:07:00.000-07:00

My UBBT year is coming to an end. One of my goals has been shelved for a little bit due to the class I had enrolled in being cancelled, but I am still moving forward.

The great thing is that while the official UBBT is ending, I have some habits that are now a part of me. I can’t say enough how much it has done for me, both as a person and as a martial artist.

On another note, this coming week is our annual Pandemonium. We have come up with a couple of more creative ways to raise money, and the kids seem to be excited. So am I. I look forward to sweating a lot this week, and knowing that my sweat and my awareness will help to make a difference.

I thank Kung Fu for the difference it has made in my life, and in my children’s lives. I see how much they have grown, and I feel that the world has a better chance of survival because of them.

My truth

2011-11-06T19:48:00.000-07:00

I have been thinking lately about what defines me as a person. I have asked myself if it’s my hopes and dreams that define me or if it’s simply the things that make me happy in this moment?

I think when we get lost in our dreams, it becomes really easy to be disappointed when the reality is different. It is good to dream, and have goals though, so we have something to work towards, but we need to be cognizant to keep from getting blinded by them.

There are specifics that define me, and I think that to be able to continue to grow as a person it’s important for me to keep them front and center.

I am doing what I love, and loving what I am doing.

A matter of perception

2011-10-23T10:35:00.000-06:00

It’s funny how we interpret things. I have been struggling with a teaching concept for months now, and I had a moment of clarity last week when talking with Sifu Brinker. I saw the value in the approach, but inwardly fought against it.

Now that it has been further explained, I am getting it. It doesn’t mean that I am comfortable with the process, as I have yet to put it into action, but now with a different perspective it shouldn’t be too difficult.

But as with all things, we do sometimes need reminders, or resets to keep us in that moment, or moments. I love teaching, and this clarity should expand on that love and passion. I hope.

In order to teach, we also have to learn.

Don't do the laugh

2011-10-16T15:53:00.001-06:00

This past year seems to have passed quite quickly, and I am not sure where it went. I do know that I am looking forward to the coming year. Prep for Chinese New Year always gets my juices flowing, and this one is no exception. A new lion and a dragon = pure awesomeness!!! (there is no charge for awesomeness or attractiveness).

I wasn't looking...

2011-10-09T15:01:00.001-06:00

...But I found a fantastic book at my daughters parent teacher interview. Every time they have these, there is always a Scholastic book fair in the library. As a treat for my girls, it has become almost a tradition for me to buy them each a book. However, this past week, I saw a book for myself.

I am not usually impulsive when I buy something for myself, but that day, I had to have it and I didn't even peek inside the cover. Well, to my delighted surprise, I found a gem. Maybe not for everyone, but most definitely for me.

It's called "TEACH Like Your Hair's on Fire" by Rafe Esquith. It's about the teaching methods of a fifth grade teacher in an inner city school. I am so pumped! I just want to share his Aha moment - he had been doubting his career as a teacher, but one day during a science experiment he noticed a girl who was always picked last, and struggled to belong who was having troubles getting her wick to light. He decided then and there that she wasn't going home until her experiment worked. He got engrossed with her experiment and didn't notice his hair was on fire until the other students started slapping his head.

When your passion is apparent, then it will spread like fire. I am really inspired by this book so far...

( on another note, a Lil Leopard who we have been trying to get on the mats for a while actually spent some time with me yesterday, and he gave me a hug. That makes it all so worthwhile.)

Water horse

2011-10-02T13:01:00.001-06:00

Some days, it's hard to know what to write about, or rather where to start.

It's funny how you can lose yourself in Kung Fu. When I am training or teaching, everything disappears - any worry or concern is gone. I thank Kung Fu for that everyday.

Kung Fu is truly a gift. One for us to treasure and cherish.

On the other side

2011-09-25T12:29:00.001-06:00

My oldest daughter has moved up to the Advanced Teen/Adult class and it has definitely been an adjustment for us. She is settling in well, but I am finding it really different being on the sidelines. For numerous reasons, I am not on the deck, but instead I am on the bench with some other parents.

It is hard on one hand, as I want to jump in sometimes to help. However I am finding that I am learning a lot by by observing. It is a completely different view from the bench, and it's neat to see what you miss by being directly involved.

I highly recommend that if you ever find yourself sidelined due to injury or illness that you attend class anyway. By sitting out, you can learn a lot - and there are so many things that you can apply to yourself.

Centering

2011-09-18T16:01:00.001-06:00

I am practicing staying centered. It isn't always easy when multiple things are being thrown your way.

I am struggling with this as I write. There are many things going on right now and I am hoping that the practice of blogging helps to center me.

I am sitting outside right now, and have taken a moment to close my eyes and just be. I felt the sun on my face, heard the breeze in the trees, and my mind was completely empty for that moment. It was wonderful.

Its important to center yourself while training as well. It is too easy to get focused on realism, and to forget about technique. It is important to try to recognize when that is happening, and to stop for minute and empty your cup.

Contemplation

2011-09-11T21:28:00.001-06:00

As I sat in the emergency room with my daughters tonight, I got to thinking. Well I did after a snarky conversation with the triage nurse. I asked a seemingly innocent question, to which I felt my answer was both snarky and not really an answer at all. But after I sat down, I started to realize just how many people come in, and just how many might go through there in a single day. That is when I realized that I asked a question that is probably asked a lot, and she is busy, so her short snarky answer was not on purpose but simply a response to the situation. I can’t blame her for that.

That led to me thinking about how we encounter these types of situations all the time. When we are cut off by someone in traffic, or how someone might push you aside when you hold the door open for them. There is a chance that they are not trying to be rude, but could just possibly be dealing with an emergency of sorts. We don’t know. So I am going to try to exercise this more, by taking a moment to let the annoyance pass, and then forgive them for their wrong because I don’t know what the reason for the rudeness is.

The Path of the Most Resistance

2011-09-04T17:58:00.001-06:00

Sometimes the most difficult path is the easiest one. While cutting corners can seem like the thing to do, it isn't the way. Take your training for example. It would be simpler to only do the absolute minimum required to achieve the desired result, however you can not achieve mastery this way. Improvement will not occur, as there will only be room for sustained mediocrity.

Sometimes injuries sideline us, and it can be very tempting to stop training completely, or go to the other extreme of pushing through it. There is a way of keeping up your training without aggravating them further. Basically, it boils down to mindfulness. Know what your limits are and working around them. While I don't always follow this advice, I am trying.

I overdid it this week with the renos, and I don't regret it at all. However, now that the tendinitis has flared it's ugly head once more, I am going to have to stay mindful of my activity so that I can heal. Not easy, but it's not supposed to be. If it was easy, then mastery is far off in the distance.

Back to School!

2011-08-30T17:12:00.001-06:00

Tomorrow is the first day back to school for many of our students, and I am sure it wrought with both anxiety and excitement. It’s nice that the kwoon is closed this week for the kids (and their parents) to prepare. Not to mention our annual renos.

The Advanced Black Dragons had their last class of the summer outside at Rotary Park. It was fantastic weather wise, and the kids had a blast. I did too. I do it for the kids, and for myself - as both an end to summer, and a kick off to the new year.

This week is a nice break as an instructor in two ways. One, to regroup and refresh myself. And two, to be able to put some sweat and blood into the kwoon.

So, until classes start in September - Don’t forget to keep practicing!!!!!!!

Tai Chi

2011-08-22T21:06:00.004-06:00

I had something else written and when I went to post, it just didn't feel quite right. I guess I should have posted it anyway and carried on. Oh well.

Something that has been really good for me, is learning Tai Chi. The process of it relaxes me, and the movements bring me peace. It has helped me through some injuries by giving me strength, both mental and physical. I truly believe that while it will show you every injury you didn't know you had, it also strengthens all of the little muscles.

I also find it really resets me after the Lil Leopard class. Whoever planned that was really thinking! I love the Lil Leopards and the energy they bring, but I need a break after all that cute chaos. It's like I get all pumped up, and then that energy is quieted and spread out within me in the Tai Chi class.

I also feel, that for anyone who needs to work on flow, this is the class to take. It forces you to slow down, and really feel your body and what it is doing. (And the atmosphere is wonderful) (Was that subtle?)

Reno's

2011-08-14T11:55:00.001-06:00

The annual renovations at the kwoon are an important part of our training. We become more accountable for our training, and our spirit becomes embodied in our kwoon. It is the process of putting our sweat and blood that makes the school what it is, and it bonds us to the other students as well.

Every time I step into the school, I am taken with the efforts that are constantly being put into it. Some of us are more visible in the school with what we do, and others operate quietly in the background. It is all those efforts combined that make our Kung Fu school what it is.

Sometimes being a leader is what you do quietly in the background while things are buzzing around you. Sometimes it is rallying those around you for a common cause, such as tiling. A lot of effort is going into our place of training right now, and I hope that those leading that transformation are aware of how much their efforts are appreciated, and that those offering their sweat and blood are also appreciated.

No, I am not at the school today. But my heart and soul is with those students there. I am proud to be a part of Silent River Kung Fu.

Forms

2011-08-07T11:22:00.000-06:00

I have been thinking about the progression of my Kung Fu. Where it has come from, and how it has developed over time. What are my favourite things nows, are not necessarily my favourites from the past.

I love forms, Tai Chi included. I love how they feel, and the flow that comes with them. I have been working on them lately in slow motion, so that I can focus on how each stance feels, and how they connect to the next technique. My biggest challenge has been the Hung Gar forms, as my hips just don’t seem to want to cooperate. However, by slowing them down, I think they are coming. Nowhere near perfect yet, but slowly getting better.

I am also aware that I have to by mindful of how much I slow my forms down to pick them apart, as something that has always eluded me is speed and power. In the past, (and probably still now to a degree) always look like Tai Chi. Too much flow. I guess the balance comes in practicing forms slow, and then going full out to make sure that whatever changes I have made will continue to be present when speed and realism are added.

The other challenge, is how to express my passion for forms to my students. How can I make them excited, and want to practice them? Hopefully, that one will be a continuous one, that will keep my passion sparked.

Bare Feet

2011-07-25T07:34:00.000-06:00

I am a firm believer in journaling, and while I have no idea what to write about today, I know that once I start some thoughts will form. Hopefully it makes sense.

My training is going alright. I got recertified in first aid last week, and it feels good to have that off my plate. I hope I never have to use it, but one never knows what life will bring.

I spent some time outside with my girls yesterday, and was amazed at how many dragonfly’s there was. I sat reading with my bare feet in the grass (an awesome feeling), and had one land on my book. My oldest spent considerable time trying to get them to land on her hand, and was fairly successful. It was just amazing to see them, and not be swatting mosquito’s constantly.

On another note, I have the forest outside my window. Actually, my one daughter made a bird house in school, and we hung it just outside my window. We have baby birds in there, and there chirping is a sweet sound. It isn’t something we hear much in the city, and it is so refreshing to wake up to that sound. It starts my day off with a smile, and a gently reminder to live in the moment.

Awakening the Dragon

2011-07-17T19:13:00.000-06:00

It’s time for me to awaken my dragon. Recently my dragon (spirit) has been asleep at the wheel. I haven’t been focusing on what Kung Fu gives me, and what my utmost potential can be with Kung Fu behind me.

With my awakened dragon, I can overcome anything. I just have to keep things in perspective and talk them out when I need to. To focus on my inner spirit, I need to take care of me. It’s important that while I take care of those around me, I have to let my Kung Fu take care of me. And it will if I let it.

So how are my other animals doing?

Tiger = Strength. I am not too bad here, but with injuries, not as strong as I could be. However, my will is strong.
Leopard = Speed and Agility. I am doing pretty good here.
Crane = Stamina. I am working on this one...
Snake = Toughening of the bones and tendons. Here I feel mostly strong, except for my wrists. The trick is to train smart.
Dragon = Spirit.

Training smart. If your leopard or snake need improvement, slow things down. Work deliberately, and focus on slow technique. Things will fall into place while you heal. If your crane needs improvement, start slow and work towards a goal.

To awaken my dragon, I am going to do some more mindful meditation, and go over all of my successes.

Hugs - An act of kindness

2011-07-10T17:14:00.001-06:00

There is a lot of power in a hug. I have thought about this a lot since yesterday morning. I got a hug from a Lil Leopard after class, and that simple thing made me feel so good. I love the connection I get with these kids (students), and I really feel I have made a difference when those special hugs occur. You can't out a price tag on that. I also really cherish hugs from my girls. My oldest has this cute way right now. She lifts my arms up, and then slides in for a bear hug. And my youngest likes to crawl onto my lap for a hug/ cuddle. Happy sigh.

Hugs are healing. They mend boo boos, dry tears, share happiness and express love. They are a symbol of protection and of acceptance. I recall reading and watching a YouTube video about this guy who stood on a street with a sign giving out free hugs. At first it seems strange, but once you just open your arms and accept a hug, any strangeness disappears.

I was watching a show today on a monkey sanctuary in Africa, and seeing a bunch of baby monkeys giving a volunteer hugs just made me smile and made me feel good. Nothing beats a good hug.

I encourage you, to perform this simple act of kindness today - both you and the recipient will feel spectacular.

A different direction

2011-07-03T19:33:00.001-06:00

I have been thinking about the direction my Kung Fu is going, and I think I am starting to accept it. I have had a specific goal in front of me for a while, and have struggled with the journey over this past year. I have had to re-think my reasons for choosing this goal, and continue to remind myself to appreciate the direction I am headed. I think that sometimes we try to fit into a specific ideal, and when we don't quite fit frustration quickly sets in. So everyday I remind myself of where my Kung Fu is heading, and remind myself of the continuous journey I am on. I also have to remind myself sometimes that my Kung Fu is mine alone, and I am the one who controls the outcome. I am a martial artist.

Aww shucks

2011-06-26T19:32:00.000-06:00

A couple of months ago, I was paid a compliment. A student told me that I was a calm person.

It is something that I continue to keep in front of me. While a lot of people may not see that as much of a compliment, it says something to me about my approach to Kung Fu. While I worry sometimes about the example I set, something as simple this lays it all out for me.

Boot camp yesterday was great too. I love being able to take part, as I learn something new every time I am there. Also, the enthusiasm of all the students is contagious, and re-ignites my passion. It is awesome to see the sense of accomplishment that everyone has at the end of the day. And the rain held off until our 2 km run was over.

I am still contemplating my Kung Fu, and what I bring to the school, however after yesterday and my compliment, things are pretty clear.

The art of Journaling

2011-06-19T14:45:00.000-06:00

Journaling, whether publicly or privately is a very powerful tool. It is a way of capturing your thoughts, emotions and experiences in a way that is easy to review down the road. Sifu Brinker has said that a picture can capture a moment, but a journal will capture how you felt in that moment.

I have been journaling publicly now for at least 3 years, almost without fail once a week. I have missed a couple but have missed it when I haven't. Sometimes it's a struggle to find something to write, but most of the time, once I start, the words just come out. I don't journal for anyone but myself. If someone gets something out of reading it, then that's cool, but it isn't my purpose. I like going back in time and seeing how I have grown in my martial arts and as a person. It's a reminder of where I have come from, and gives me a clue as to where I am going.

It is a tool that I recommend to anyone, publicly or privately. It is good for the soul and for the spirit.

Standing still

2011-06-12T13:57:00.001-06:00

Don't be afraid
To fall down, we'll pick you up

Don't be afraid
To learn new things, we always will

Don't be afraid
To accept help, because you will grow

Don't be afraid
To always remain a student, there is so much to learn

Don't be afraid
To look deep inside yourself, the truth is there

Don't be afraid
To push past your limits, your soul will thank you

Don't be afraid
To express yourself in the way that is true to you

Don't be afraid
Of change, the other side can be extraordinary

Don't be afraid
Of being weak, strength grows from your weakness

Don't be afraid
Of standing still. Being in the moment is simply incredible.

1000 Pushups again

2011-06-05T11:37:00.001-06:00

Last week, the advanced kids class asked for homework. I love that they do that, but they caught me off guard so I didn't have any ideas. So I asked the class. And they asked to do 1000 pushups for Monday. That gave them 4 & 1/2 days, myself included to get them done. It's nice as it helps me with my UBBT numbers, and the sense of accomplishment the kids will have is awesome.

We'll see if I can get to 1000 with my wrists, but I sure as heck am going to try! Rock on guys!

It may be our last tournament

2011-05-29T19:09:00.000-06:00

Yesterday marked our annual Tiger Challenge, which allows both locations of our school to compete against each other (and ourselves) in a warm community environment. It was a great day.

This year, one of my UBBT goals was to compete. It didn’t matter if I placed at all, I just wanted to continue to get more comfortable performing under pressure. I did alright with my individual hand form, and placed second. I don’t feel I deserved my first place in the team hand forms and I hope I didn’t let my partner down. It was a form I have done hundreds of times, as it is one of my favourites. However, when I went to perform it with said partner, by mind/ body was still in deep with my previous form. So right off the bat, my opening bow was the wrong one. Oops. Then twice more I went into a different form and caught myself. The reason we got gold is because we were the only competitors. It was still a learning experience for me, and in the past it may have frustrated me to screw up so publicly, but I was able to laugh it off yesterday. I know it was my worst performance ever, but I think because of the environment I was in, those that train with me are aware of my abilities.

I missed seeing my girls do their team weapon form, but they did very well and earned a very nice silver for their efforts. And I did get to see my oldest daughter perform a fight choreography with partner, and I was proud of how well they did.

It might have been our last tournament due to circumstance, but if it was, it was a fine, fine day to end it with. I am proud to be a part of the Silent River Kung Fu family.

A few notes on "Depression"

2011-05-22T13:37:00.003-06:00

Depression is a mental illness that affects many, many people. It is in fact a disease, that is not caused by personal weakness, neither is it a character flaw. It is a disease where the chemicals in your brain are out of balance.

There are things that can cause depression, but sometimes there isn't any reason at all. It is important that depression is recognized and treated as quickly as possible.

A few symptoms of depression are: weight loss or gain, sleeping too much or not enough almost every day, feeling restless and not being able to sit still, or you may sit quietly and feel that moving takes great effort. You might feel tired or as if you have no energy almost every day. You may have feelings of being unworthy or guilty nearly every day and you may have low self-esteem and worry that people don't like you. You may find it hard to focus, remember things, or make decisions nearly every day and you may feel anxious about things.

Depression can be treated. Treatments such as counseling, psychotherapy, and/or antidepressant medicines, lifestyle changes, such as getting more exercise, may help. Your doctor or mental health professional will help you find the best treatment.

It is important that there is family support. Depression is not just in your head, it is real, it is serious, and it can be treated. When it comes to mental health, it is important to be educated and unbiased. A mental illness can happen to anyone, anywhere.

Thoughts

2011-05-15T14:42:00.002-06:00

The weather has warmed up finally, and I am looking forward to spending more time outside. I love practicing Kung Fu in the grass, as I feel a closer connection to my chi and to the earth. Kung Fu outside reminds me of the fragility of and the fine balance of the earth. I am always amazed at the transformation that occurs and how quickly the earth turns green. Spring is a time of rebirth, and it never fails to soothe my soul.

Last week was a mental health week...

2011-05-08T21:30:00.002-06:00

The following is taken directly from the Canadian Mental Health Association. Last week, was National Mental Health Week...

"Some simple ways to practice mental fitness

It's not difficult! Below we suggest a few healthy practices that can be easily integrated into your daily life. The idea is that a lot of small, concerted actions can add up to a significant overall effect. Apply some of these ideas on a regular basis and you'll find yourself feeling rejuvenated and more confident.

Learn how to cope with negative thoughts: Negative thoughts can be insistent and loud: don't let them take over. Distract yourself or comfort yourself if you can't solve a problem right away. Try seeing the issue from all sides rather than from just one point of view.
Be in the present: When you're out for a walk or socializing, turn off the cell phone and take in all the sights and sounds around you. Smell the roses!
"Collect" positive emotional moments: Make a point of thinking about those times when you've felt pleasure, comfort, tenderness, confidence or other positive emotions.
Enjoy hobbies: A hobby helps bring balance to your life. You're doing something because you want to, rather than because you have to. No pressure. It's a form of mental stimulation too.
Treat yourself well: It could be a good meal, a bubble bath, a movie, or just sitting in the park enjoying nature. Small daily treats have a cumulative effect.
Get exercise: Regular physical activity is good for the mind. It can even reduce depression and anxiety. Joining an exercise group or gym is even better because it connects you with others."

A Short One :-(

2011-04-24T11:39:00.002-06:00

Unfortunately, my tendonitis has flared it’s ugly head again, so I have to limit my typing for the time being. That’s difficult, as my job requires a lot of data entry, and I am working on some written assignments.

It’s a little frustrating, as this past week and a half has been wrought with aches and pains, which has impacted my training. Not to complain though, as I am forced to address other areas which need my attention. I was hoping to be able to work on my double broadsword form for the Tiger Challenge, but at this time, my wrists cannot take it. Oh well. That gives me an opportunity to do some required reading, and to direct my energy into teaching. I have a list of other aches, but as with the tendonitis, they are a part of me.

The Book of Awesome

2011-04-17T18:03:00.003-06:00

I was given this book as a gift, and I give a silent high five to the person who wrote it, and a heartfelt hug to the person who gave it to me.

I was struggling with what to write about today, and when I picked up this book for a smile, I knew I had to quote something from it. It's called "The Book of Awesome" by Neil Pasricha. I love it.

"Getting Grass Stains

First of all, getting grass satins mean that you were running around at high speeds without proper equipment. Maybe you slid last minute to avoid a frozen tag or made an awkward somersault dive at a line drive Wiffle Ball. Either way, the grass stain symbolizes your large devil-may-care investment in having balls out fun, and that's something worth respecting.

See boring people, like myself, rarely get grass stains running around because we're always doing it in Umbros and shin pads from 7:30 to 8:25 p.m. on Mondays down at the indoor gym.

Now, when you're just running around full throttle in cords and a sweater until you trip on a rock and fall down a hill, my friend, that is something. Walk home with pants full of grass stains, some spicy kneeburn, and mud-caked shoes, and you've just had yourself a great day.

AWESOME!"

2011-04-10T22:00:00.000-06:00

I almost forgot to blog today...oops. I don’t have much to say today, except that the last little while I have been trying extra hard to live in the moment. To revel in the warm sunshine, and to ignore the snow that is still on the ground. To enjoy the alone time I am given while sitting in a futile traffic jam. Maybe this is less living in the moment and more of staying in a positive frame of mind. Somehow, I think they both go together.

Where I am at

2011-04-03T12:08:00.002-06:00

It was Spring Break for the kids last week, so there weren’t any children’s classes. I decided to stay home for the four days that we normally have kids class, and spent time with my kids instead. It was a needed break.

I thought it might impact my training, as I am not the best when it comes down to working out at home. But I got some forms in, and my mind actually feels a little fresher.

We performed our first demo of the year yesterday at the local trade show, and it turned out really great. We had many belt levels perform, a lion dance and kids do their thing as well. I love demos, as they continually give me something to work towards, and I feel that by taking part, I can impact my mental training, my physical training and those training around me. I think passion is infectious, and by taking our martial arts into the world (not excluding our community work), we are infecting those around us with it.

It felt good to be out there. And congrats to all those that performed yesterday. You guys did fantastic!

Change

2011-03-27T20:56:00.005-06:00

I am reading the Lil Leopards the book “The Lorax” by Dr. Suess. I feel it’s an important tool that I have to start teaching them environmental self defense. It’s a lyrical book, with lots of colours, and I hope that these young children of tomorrow will learn from it.

This ties in with my Lorax Project, which will coincide with Earth Day on April 22nd. Although it should be Earth day everyday. This project first appeared with our school in 2008, and the students at Silent River Kung Fu all submitted a letter or picture to Mother Earth. You can find it on my blog and the link is posted below. This year, this project will be a video blog, and I hope the message will be just as clear.

Our earth is very unsettled right now, and it’s time to make some serious changes.

3 Laps and an 80 pound push

2011-03-20T11:25:00.001-06:00

One of my goals for this year was to run the PARE test. It’s the Physical Abilities Requirement Evaluation, that all RCMP applicants and most member’s need to complete. My test is on Wednesday April 13th, and so this past Wednesday I went down to the gym to give it a try. My purpose was to see what it was like, and perhaps adjust my workouts accordingly.

I ran 3 of the 6 laps, and holy smokes batman! It is harder than it looks. It’s like an obstacle course for grownups, and has a easy look to it. But it’s not that simple. I know I can do it though, but that’s the easy part. The hard part is that you immediately go to the push/ pull machine. There are 6 180 degree rotations you must do while pushing/ pulling the appropriate weight. I was given the applicants weight of 80 pounds. I mentioned in a previous post that 80 pounds is 2/3 of my body weight.

Again, holy smokes batman! Pulling wasn’t too difficult, as a good horse stance is all I really needed. Walking that way was a little more challenging, but not as challenging as the push. I could get the weight up, but walking/ cross stepping while doing it is almost impossible for me. I don’t have the upper body strength that I thought I did. Hm.

Anyway, while I was really sore in my shoulders the next day, I am really looking forward to April 13th. Wish me luck!

Let's get this over with....

2011-03-13T22:40:00.001-06:00

Today has been a difficult day to blog. Most of the time, this is pretty easy for me, but today I can’t seem to organize my thoughts.

I am definitely all over the map here, but my training is mostly on track. I have spent some extra time with different forms this past week, and next week I am going to observe (and maybe try a lap or two) of a physical fitness test for the RCMP. One of my goals this year is to run it and I am looking forward to accomplishing it in April. Basically, it’s an obstacle course for grown-ups, and I have to run it in a certain amount of time. And part of it involves lifting and carrying 80 lbs of dead weight. Considering that’s 2/3 of my weight, it’ll be interesting. And I guess this is where my leg strength will come into play. Lift with legs, not back...

Anyway, that’s all folks!

Rank

2011-03-06T14:06:00.001-07:00

I have been thinking a lot lately about rank. I am aiming for my second degree, and find myself getting discouraged about where I am. My inner voice tells me that is doesn’t matter where I am in the totem pole, as long as I train mindfully and stay true to myself. But sometimes that inner voice isn’t very strong.

Part of my reason for the UBBT was to give myself a boost in mindful training, and to act as a guide to grade in the fall. But the more I think about grading, the more stressed out I get. I forget to be in the moment, and forget to find joy in the little things that make it all worthwhile.

As I write this, I find my mind wandering to the Lil Leopards class yesterday, and the light that shines in all those little faces. Some are shy, don’t talk and stick to the instructor they trust. Others are chatty, and can’t wait to tell you about their day (even though it’s only 9 am). That gives me joy, and knowing that my training is getting passed to them means a lot. The same goes in my Advanced kids class. They are on the cusp of teenage hood, and I go away feeling like I made a difference all the time.

So really, does the belt around my waist mean anything at that point? Does it ever? Will the stripes on my belt give me more respect? More wisdom? No. All it does is symbolize a goal I met. So what if it takes longer than I plan? It’s the journey that takes me there that matters the most. That’s the mantra I had when I earned my black belt, and I mentally kick myself sometimes for forgetting that now.

This journey has to stay about learning, and becoming a better person. It’s about personal growth, raising awareness, and inspiring those around me. And on that note, I am going to go do some Tai Chi.........

A healthy weight

2011-02-27T10:51:00.002-07:00

We had our UBBT8 meeting yesterday at the school (student members), and we have decided that as of March 1st we are going to log our diets for one month. I followed the one they did last year, and it looks like it would be a great tool to see what you are putting into your body. Whether it’s balanced, or if you are getting enough of the things you need to maintain our athlete’s physique.

We also talked about taking care of ourselves - recovering from injuries etc. It is important and is something that I need to constantly remind myself of.

Because of the requirement to take care of oneself, I am not participating in the diet blog. About a thousand years ago, I journaled my diet. But this moved me into a state of mind, where I began to obsess over food, and my intake was severely limited. This lasted for too long, and it was a long haul to get to a point where I no longer obsess about food, it’s fat content or how many calories are in it. I am at a good weight now, and because it was journaling that started that dangerous journey, I will not participate. However, I will share some recipes though, and encourage those around me.

At this point, while I am aware of what I eat, I no longer worry about how much. I am aware of the choices I make, rarely eat meat, and I opt for the most natural choice available. It is not healthy, to obsess over what you eat. Nor is it healthy to eat whatever you want when you want it. The key is awareness - being in the moment and thinking about what you are eating, where it came from, and the fuel it is giving you.

Thich Nhat Hanh/ Dr. Lillian Cheung’s book “Savor” is a book worth reading, with regards to awareness. I highly recommend it.

Sleepover

2011-02-20T11:52:00.002-07:00

This Friday night, we held our annual Children’s Kung Fu Sleepover. The kids get to come sleep in the kwoon, play games, eat pizza and watch a movie. It’s a great way for them to socialize, and it adds an element of fun to their training.

For me as in instructor, this was my first to run. I had attended one in the past as simply a parent who trained, so this one was exciting for me. A little stressful, but exciting at the same time. And I have to admit when,Thursday night, Sifu Brinker told me that there would be around 30 kids, I was a little bit worried. But that dissolved completely when Friday night we realized that there would only be about 20. That made everything feel like a piece of cake from that point on.

It worked out better than I thought. And I am glad that I have learned to go with the flow, rather than try to strictly impose a schedule. I had a list of things we could do, but you have to read the kids, and their moods and simply work with that. I work well with the other children’s instructors, so it went just swimmingly.

All the kids were great - they ranged from 4 years to 12 years of age, and the one 4 year old, was in with the older kids like a dirty sock. It was a great experience. I did learn one thing though (although I had a sneaking suspicion of it beforehand). I learned that I am too old to be sleeping on the mats without a mattress of some sort. So next year, maybe I will actually get some sleep. Ha ha.

Teaching kids has really impacted my training in a positive way. It helps keep me young at heart, and keeps the fun in Kung Fu. It inspires me to be a better role model, and to be more creative with drills.

National Sweater Day - February 17, 2011

2011-02-13T12:07:00.002-07:00

This Thursday February 17th is National Sweater Day. The idea is to turn down the thermostat by 3 degrees, put on a sweater and make a difference.

According to the World Wildlife Foundation, if all Canadians turned down their thermostat by 3 degrees over the winter, we could save 2.2 megatonnes of carbon dioxide a year. In other words, reducing 2.2 megatonnes of carbon dioxide is equivalent to taking 350 000 cars off the road. I think that’s pretty remarkable, and it’s such a simple solution.

There are many things we can do to reduce our carbon emissions. We can choose to drive less, and find alternative ways of transportation. We can lower our heat, and/ or air conditioning. We can stop idling our vehicles. Draft proof your house, hang dry your clothes, wash them is cold water, purchase a more fuel efficient car, or ride your bike instead. By eating less meat we are helping our environment, by buying local foods, we save on our carbon output. We can use a man powered lawn mower to save on emissions, and we should be using reusable bags for our shopping needs. These are just a few things we can do to slow down the climate change. They are just simple things, that go a long way.

Climate change is the biggest environmental threat in the world. Now is the time to raise awareness - every day. So, this Thursday, I am going to don an extra sweater and turn down the heat - at work and at home. (On a side note, this winter I did not turn up the heat as much as I have in the past. I usually like to be able to walk around in shorts in the winter, but this year, I chose to just dress a little warmer, and put an extra blanket on my bed.)

Performing

2011-02-07T21:04:00.000-07:00

This past Saturday marked our annual Chinese New Year banquet and it was fantastic. As usual, because I was running around a lot I missed a bit, but from what I saw, and from what I heard, it was a big success.

There were a couple of black belt promotions, numerous awards were handed out, our Benevolent Foundation presented donations to our chosen charites, and we saw numerous demos.

I have been lion dancing for about 5 years now, and this was the second year that I was the buddha for our new lion at the banquet. It’s nice in the sense, that I can put on my “helmet” and disappear. I can really exaggerate my stances, and be a total goofball. There is a lot of freedom while I am hiding in there, and I love playing the part.

But I was also given a gift this year. Two years ago, a few weeks before I was to be presented with my black belt at our banquet, I broke my ankle. Ironically enough it was during lion dance practice that I fell and broke it. Anyway, I wasn’t able to perform as is the tradition, and my training mates ended up creating an amazing video of us doing our demonstration to play for everyone. This year’s gift, was the opportunity to perform live at the banquet. It was hard work, and nerve wracking, but it felt so good to be able to do it. I am not always broken, and it was a wonderful opportunity to show how passionate I am about what I do.

This year’s banquet also gave the opportunity to train and work with an amazing bunch of people. We truly have an amazing Kung Fu family.

Happy Year of the Rabbit!

Sunday

2011-01-30T11:36:00.003-07:00

Sundays are my down days. It’s the one day a week, where I can quietly reflect on the past week, unwind, and start to prepare for the coming week.

I relish these days, as I can just lounge around, and focus on my Kung Fu in a different way. I spend 6 days a week, working, training and teaching. Don’t get me wrong, I love my life and I wouldn’t trade it for anything. But it would be very awesome to train and teach every day and not have to worry about my day job. One day maybe!

Days like today, I can review my classes of the last week, look at what I could have done better, and can make a plan for next week. For example, some days, the Lil Leopards class is like herding cats. It can be really difficult to re-engage them after stopping an activity, and find their focus again. And of course, all their parents are watching, and as an instructor, I need to make sure they see the value in the classes. So it’s a good day, right now, to find a different way of approaching the kids, and renew the passion I have for teaching them.

As for my UBBT requirements, I use my Sundays to reflect on my progress, and make any adjustments that are needed. For example, this week, my wrists felt great, so I decided to push myself on Wednesday and Thursday. Oops. The pain returned on Thursday night, so while the accomplishment of doing 100 pushups felt really great, I had to mentally kick myself for not training smarter. One day, my brain will kick in. :-)

Today is my “free” day, and it’s off to a great start.

It's coming!

2011-01-23T11:32:00.002-07:00

Chinese New Year is on Thursday February 3rd, and our Annual Chinese New Year Banquet is on the 5th. Our preparations have been underway for a while now, and it’s great to see it all coming together.

It will be a little different this year, but that makes it all the more memorable. We will be giving life to our newest Chinese Lion, Zhang Fei, along with a new team of dancers. They have proven that anything is possible, and I am really excited to be a buddha in this dance with them.

Our demos are coming together as well - I don’t feel as prepared with my Advanced kids class as I did last year, but I know they will shine regardless. And of course the Lil Leopards/ Tiny Tigers will be as cute as ever.

It’s a lot of work to prepare for the demo, and it is cutting into my UBBT training a little bit. Mostly my goal of 100 hours of bag work. But it’s only 2 more weeks, and then I can tackle that one with fervor. And I can once again pick up my double broadswords to prepare for the tournament in late April/ early May.

This time of year is a busy one, but also a fulfilling one. I am excited, and will post some pictures after February 5th!

Inventory

2011-01-16T11:47:00.000-07:00

Lately (the last week or so), I have been forced to take inventory of my injuries. The tendonitis in my wrists has been acting up, preventing me from doing much in the way of pushups, my ankle has been sore, the ball of my other foot has been sore, and my hip is still an issue. It might sound like I am complaining, but I am just more aware of my limitations this week, and have to keep them in front of me.

I have also been taking some inventory of my household stuff. One of my goals for this year, is to reduce the stuff in our house by a minimum of 50%. To do this, I have to do two things. One, is to go through everything, room by room, and get rid of all the things we do not use anymore. I plan to fill at least one box per month, although more is better. The second thing is to buy less. That will be the easier task. I have a habit of holding on to all of the kids’ things. Pictures they make, the art projects that come home, and all of their other things.

I am looking forward to minimizing. I used to move a lot, and always took that opportunity to downsize. However, it is so easy to just collect more. And now that I plan on staying where we are for a long while, I need to simplify. It will help with the anxiety my daughter and I suffer from, and it will be a step towards lessening our global consumption. A little goes a long way, and if I set this example for my kids, I know it can spread.

Pressure

2011-01-09T11:12:00.002-07:00

I have been blogging publicly now for a couple of years, but now that I am a part of the UBBT 8, I am feeling a lot more pressure to write something meaningful. I guess maybe I am just over thinking things (yet again), because somehow Kung Fu always ties in to what I write. It is a part of my life, and I cannot see that ever changing.

I am a week in to my UBBT, and I already feel more challenged than I have in the last 2 years. My journey since 2009 has been more of a mental one, rather than physical, and so far I am enjoying pushing my body. I am more aware of how much I can do, and I hope I can stay smart with my training. I have this habit of pushing through pain, or not healing enough before I get back on the mats with a no holds barred attitude.

Anyway, I have a long journey ahead of me, and with a bunch of like minded people on it with me, I know that no matter what happens, this will be one to remember. I am both nervous and excited, and while there will be doubts and insecurities, I will grow as a martial artist, and a person.

1000

2011-01-02T12:21:00.001-07:00

Yesterday, the school brought in the new year with a 1000 pushups and 1000 situps. Unfortunately due to old injuries, and not wanting to make things worse, I only did 500 pushups. It was really motivating to have everyone posting their progress, and it felt good to be a part of a team like that.

I am looking forward to this next year, and being a part of the UBBT8. Even my kids seem excited for me - however my youngest was a little concerned about my health this morning. She said “Mom, I don’t want you to get hurt again. You always seem to break something.” What a sweetie. But it got me thinking about my grading process for my black belt. They were supportive of me, and while sometimes they complained that I was always busy with Kung Fu, the night I told them I had passed, they both hugged me and told me they were proud of me. And yesterday, they both encouraged me, and offered to help me get my numbers up.

Of the two girls, only one is really enjoying Kung Fu. I hope this changes, but even if it doesn’t, I do know that they are both learning a lot from it. I see it in the empathy they exhibit towards others, and I see it in the way they view the world around them.

UBBT8 is going to be great for me, and great for us as a family. It will be a year of growth for all of us and so far, we are off to a great start.

External what?

2010-12-26T12:14:00.002-07:00

For a while now, I have been focusing more on my internal Kung Fu, and it’s time to start working on my external. It started with my broken ankle two years ago, and I now have injuries that seem to either accumulate, or they seem to appear as I am healing from another one.

UBBT8 is going to give me the push/ goals that will help to bring my external Kung Fu up to par. My shoulder/ hip harmony seems to depend upon the level of pain I am experiencing in my hip, and my foot/ hand harmony is dependent on the pain level in my foot. Haha, I am a mess. But I know I will get better.

My Tai Chi is coming along, and one of my requirements is to perform it completely 100 times over the next year. A couple of spots also aggravate my hip, but Tai Chi is a little more forgiving as to how I can adjust my body. I can make two smaller pivots, as opposed to one pivot, so that helps.

I need to work on my cane sequences a little more. I have been somewhat restrained with wrist tendonitis, but again, it’s all about adjustments. Say I can do two sets of the sequences instead of a dozen. I have had to make adjustments for my wrists in other areas too. For example, pushups hurt my wrists palms down, so I do knuckle pushups instead.

While I have these goofy little physical annoyances, I know that I will come out stronger over the next year. I am looking forward to starting it off with 1000 pushups and 1000 situps on January 1st.

37 Years

2010-12-19T13:24:00.001-07:00

My parents have been married for 37 years today. They have always been a source of inspiration, and I think they have something special. In a time where divorce seems so easy, they still have a lot of love and affection for each other.

They have always set a good example for me and my brother, and continue to do so for my children. They have a solid base, and have always been there for each other. And they have always been there for their family.

They’ve always given their guidance freely, and their forgiveness comes quickly. They provide stability and a place I am always welcome. I receive unlimited love and nurturing, which enables me to give the same to my children.

I want to congratulate them today, and wish them many more years to come.

Plans and the number 8

2010-12-12T13:52:00.000-07:00

My brain is full of things I want to accomplish, and it can be very overwhelming sometimes. I know I have to prioritize, and instead of thinking about them, I need to just sit down and put them into action.

I am excited because the UBBT 8 can really help me with this. I have some goals already laid out, and have been contemplating a few more. It’s a little scary, as I want to find the right balance right now, but I know I might bite off more than I can chew.

Overall, my biggest plan is to live simply, and to live in the moment as much as I can. All of my littler goals are going to contribute to this, and I hope to find more inner peace. It sounds a little hokey maybe, but I believe I can do this.

Choices

2010-12-05T09:44:00.000-07:00

Every day we make choices. Some aren’t the best, but I think overall, we try to make the right ones. Sometimes, it’s easy to let someone get under our skin and to react accordingly, but sometimes, it’s better to just smile.

I was in the grocery store about a week ago, and something happened. Nothing extraordinary or anything, but I made a choice and I feel good about it. I was shopping with my youngest daughter (8 yrs), and we went to a checkout. When we pulled in with our cart, the light was on, but after unloading a few things, the cashier said “Excuse me, but I am closed.” Then I noticed her light was off. Nice. But instead of making it an issue, which would have been easy, I chose to smile, look at my daughter and tell her that we need to find a new cashier. The one next to us called out to us with a smile, so it helped me to keep my spirit up. I could have said something, but I felt that maybe this person had a bad day, or just a really long busy one, and so it isn’t a big deal for me to move on. And my daughter was with me, and there was no need to get upset in front of her. I want to teach her to have peace in her heart, and my choosing not to get angry and move on with a smile, I hope I set a good example for her.

Fist Bump

2010-11-28T11:52:00.002-07:00

I am not sure what to write about this week.

Winter seems to be here to stay. On one hand I like it, but mostly I don’t like it, mostly due to the cold. I hate being cold, and since I can be cold in the midst of summer, I find it really frustrating sometimes. I also find that the dreariness and the dark affect me too, and so it can be difficult to start each day. It’s also easier to withdraw from things, but thankfully I have things like Kung Fu to keep me going.

No matter how I am feeling, going to Kung Fu whether to teach or to learn, I always feel better after. Chinese new year is coming, and I have started to think about my kids classes. I don’t know what direction we’ll go in yet, but I am excited about the possibilities.

The Black Dragons class tomorrow is going to focus on bullying. I feel that while the schools talk about a zero tolerance, they really don’t seem to do anything about it. I have seen it countless times, and I find that any change ultimately lies in the parents. Is that right? I don’t think so. What happened to suspensions? Or detentions? Or actual consequences to their actions? It needs to change. And I hope that I can start to make a lasting one.

Pandemonium and stuff

2010-11-21T10:41:00.001-07:00

Something that I have been waiting for has finally happened! I got my letter of offer last Tuesday afternoon, and I started my new position on Wednesday. I am now a Health Services clerk, and so far I am loving it. It felt surreal on Wednesday, as I have waited for 5 months to go there, and the strange thing was that I was overwhelmed and underwhelmed at the same time.

I didn’t let go of all the previous job stress as quickly as I thought I would, and initially I was worried about my decision. However, it was the absolutely right one. I have zero doubts about that. I am able to utilize my previous experience/ knowledge, and am gaining more. I still have lots to learn, and I have to find a new rhythm, but that will come. So far, I like the people, and the passion they have for what they do.

This week, we completed our annual Pandemonium. It was a lot of fun, but I was a little disappointed that more students didn’t show up. It happens every year, and I only saw a couple of classes so I could be wrong, but what I don’t understand is that no matter if you fundraise or not, it is still a lot of fun to participate in. At least, I always have a lot of fun, however I can’t speak for everyone.

Congratulations to all who participated in the Pandemonium! Awesome job!

Hmmm

2010-11-14T11:46:00.001-07:00

I am really not sure what to write about today. The Pandemonium is this week, and I am excited about it. I really hope it all comes together, and that everyone has fun completing it.

I have a lot going on right now in my head. I am refining my goals for the UBBT 8, trying to plan my classes, and have numerous other projects that I want to tackle. One thing at a time though right?

On another note, Aung San Suu Kyi was released from a 7 1/2 year house arrest in Burma yesterday. It will be interesting to see if she can make a difference in a country that has been ruled by the military for the last several decades. She has a lot of support, and is someone I admire. She has tenacity and passion, and is someone who makes a difference, even while under house arrest. The world is watching...

It’s amazing how one person can make such a difference. She gives hope to the thousands of supporters in her country, and hope to everyone around the world. Her spirit has not been broken, and I admire her strength.

Limbo

2010-11-07T09:10:00.002-07:00

I have been waiting to hear about my transfer to a different unit, and at the end of October I was told that November 15th would be my start day. Well, I still don't have a letter, so that day will pass by and I will still be where I am now. The good thing is that I have a job, regardless and I am lucky. Many people don't. So I'll keep waiting in limbo, and doing what I do.

Acts of Kindness

2010-10-31T10:47:00.001-06:00

My kids impressed me yesterday. I feel some guilt because I realized that I don’t always give them enough credit, and don’t always recognize how big their hearts are. I know I hold them to a high standard, and it causes me to miss some of the little things.

Yesterday, we were heading up to my mom and dads, and were waiting for the elevator with a lady who was using the building cart to bring a couple of boxes and stuff upstairs. After pushing the button a few times, it became apparent that someone had locked the elevator on the 4th floor.

I asked the lady what floor she needed, and then I offered to help her carry it up the stairs. Haley was right in there, and so was Maya, even though she was really grouchy. It turns out the lady was getting a head start on moving her daughter into the building, and she was really nice. And extremely grateful, as she would have had to somehow bring up the boxes on her own.

Haley said to me after, that she felt really good for helping, and she had a giant smile on her face. And even though Maya refused to look at me, I knew that she felt good too. So while I volunteered them to help, they jumped right in, and made me proud.

It proves that small things can make a huge difference.

Treat others the way you want to be treated

2010-10-24T14:20:00.000-06:00

How do we teach our children and peers to be leaders? I really believe in setting an example, so instead of talking too much, we need to actually do more. We need them to see us doing what we say to do, and to visibly see our passion.

So how do we show our children the way to lead when they are at school? How do you define the line between helping and being taken advantage of? I hope that be talking as a family, and discussing things that happen, without dismissing them is a good start. So is doing more at Kung Fu.

I try to be involved in my kids training, by training with them. I hope that with them seeing my involvement in my school, and by including them in our community, and volunteering our family, that it will encourage them to lead.

Together we can make a difference. We walk the walk, and talk the talk.

Kung Fu

2010-10-17T11:36:00.001-06:00

I realized something not too long ago, and it became more evident this week in my older daughter.

I noticed her coordination in her swimming lessons over the summer, and her lessons now. Compared to the other kids her age, her ability to move her arms and legs together but separately is way ahead of the others.

And this week, she was telling me about how they are learning football in gym class. She was on a team of 4 with 3 other boys, and she was telling me that she is good at throwing, and that out of the kids in her class, she is one of the only ones who can step forward and throw the ball at the same time.

This brought our conversation to Kung Fu. I told her that it was Kung Fu that has given her that coordination, and the ability to move her body like that. She was a little surprised, but I explained that we do that stuff every class. It’s in our forms, in our techniques, and even sparring. As it dawned on her, that Kung Fu is going to help her in all sports, her face lit up.

I am really excited to see how much Kung Fu will positively influence the rest of her life. (Of course, there is the mental discipline and focus, but that’s for another blog)

Thanks for you...

2010-10-10T12:09:00.001-06:00

My family, for bringing meaning to my life. For your unconditional love, laughter, and support.

My children, for giving me purpose, and a sense of being. For letting me relive your innocence, and for teaching me how to stay in the moment.

My Kung Fu, for helping me grow as a person, to become more accountable, and to further myself in making a difference in the world around me.

My friends, for sharing experiences, for the support in good and bad times, and for always being just a phone call away.

My health, for allowing me to be healthy enough to work hard to provide for my family, and to enjoy the life that I have blessed with.

My country, for giving me access to health care, the freedom to vote, and a relatively safe place to live.

Mother Earth, for providing us with air, soil, and water, so that we can cohabitate with all other life. I am sorry, that us, the human race, have not shown you enough respect, and I hope with all I am, that it isn’t too late.

Happy Thanksgiving.

This one is untitled.

2010-10-03T20:59:00.001-06:00

It can be really hard to write something sometimes. I could take the easy way out, and tell myself I will do it tomorrow, but tomorrow never comes right?

So briefly - I have started physiotherapy for my wonky hip and wrist tendonitis. We’ll see how that goes. I have also been seriously considering UBBT 8 and have a few requirements for myself already. Hmmm, this blog isn’t much, but it’s something...

Not much today I'm afraid...

2010-09-26T21:09:00.003-06:00

Sometimes these are really hard to write. It isn't like I don't have anything to say either, it's more that there is just too much to put into words without putting myself to sleep (or anyone else for that matter).

I have started the first steps in at least knowing what is going on with my hip. Something happened on May 8th, and the only thing unusual that comes to mind is playing tag at the park that day. It isn't always bad, but I know it's there, taunting me. It affects my training directly, and because I compensate for it, my bad ankle hasn't been feeling too nice. Arg.

I am happy though, that I think I found a direction for one of my classes. I guess that's what happens when you have to train differently, or not really at all. I am looking forward to developing it and seeing it through.

Till next time...

I’m not Acting, I am just pretending

2010-09-19T11:02:00.001-06:00

I have been Acting Supervisor for two weeks now. I have the title, but really no authority. I can make the most basic decisions, and all others still have to be run through the big cheese. That’s alright though, as that part gives me less stress. But overall, the day to day stress is getting to me.

I am not going to go into details, as that would just be boring. There is always some stuff we would rather not have to deal with, but have to. I am thinking that this position has been giving me migraines though. Not my typical ones, but with the pain and sensitivity, I am sure that is what is going on.

One of my future bosses in Health Services had mentioned to me that Acting will give me some extra experience, and that moving to their unit will also give me more so in the future I can move into a higher position. But frankly, I am really not sure that is what I want. I like not having the extra stress associated with a higher position. My life is busy, and it satisfies me. I think I will leave any future Supervisor/ Manager positions for the others.

I am excited to be moving to Health Services in the next month or so. It is something that has always interested me, and while it is intimidating to start something new, I can’t wait.

For the love of...

2010-09-12T21:22:00.000-06:00

Teaching.

Yesterday was our annual forms seminar. I have attended them as a cue belt, and as black belt, and I have to say that the learning never stops.

Teaching a form to a someone different, always offers me a new and fresh way of looking at things. And since we all learn differently, and teach differently, there is always great gains ( in my opinion).

We had 8 students, and while it was a good number for the kwoon, I was a little saddened that there weren’t more taking advantage of this opportunity. Oh well, next year.

What was pretty neat though, was that there was only on student who had attended a forms seminar before. It was truly great to see all those eager faces, and I really hope they got something valuable out of it. I know I did.

Tree Hugger

2010-09-05T13:46:00.000-06:00

Children of the fragile forest gather around
Where bird song seems to be the loudest sound
A place called Summer, green as you could please
A place where we all proudly hug the trees.

Hug trees for the walnuts and sweet apples
For the shade above small country chapels
For giving squirrel and crow a place to live
For the priceless gift of oxygen they give.

Follow your feet across a woodland floor
Beneath the tall and ancient sycamore
Under redwood, under tall blue pine
Come with me and form an endless line.

Join the boy whose name is simply ME
Take your turn and hug a mighty tree
A wish we cast upon an August breeze
A dream to cross the seven sacred seas.

Release it now, just like a big balloon...
A prayer to reach the mountains of the moon
To citizens of Earth alas we say
Go find yourself a tree to hug today!

And if a grownup says Don’t be a fool!
Or Is that what they’re teaching you in school
Just find this poem and read this simple rhyme
It’s cool to HUG a TREE from time to time!

Children this is how the world can be
Making Earth plan A and not plan B
Wear Change! Share Change! Sing Change! Bring Change
And start by hugging a tree!

Todd-Michael St. Pierre

I got my running pants on!

2010-08-29T11:32:00.001-06:00

I was just watching Bugs Bunny, and when he said this, I knew it was would be a perfect blog title.

Now what to write about! I have noticed my stress level being at a higher level over the past couple of weeks. I have found myself on many occasions in the midst of clenching my jaw, resulting in subsequent headaches, and overall tension. It has taken some thought to try to figure out what is going on, and I think I know now. Maybe I am a dork for worrying about it, especially when I don’t have any control over it.

The only thing that comes to mind, is the change my oldest daughter is heading for on September 1st. She is going to middle school, complete with new kids, a new bus, and a locker. Deep down I know she will adjust, but it has been really difficult this summer watching her grow up. I have dreams about sending her to school totally unprepared, and it has affected me, as much as I try to deny it.

My stress diminished a little once I had all their school supplies, but it is still there, niggling at me. I am just not ready for this! Again, I know she will be fine, and so will I, but this has been way harder than I ever imagined.

Once our routine is settled, I will settle down too. We don’t have any Kung Fu classes this week so the kids can get prepared for and settled into their back to school routines. It is a great idea, but I think that I need Kung Fu more than ever. So I am heading in for a couple of hours this week, not to train, but to put some sweat and blood into the Kwoon. It’s a mental training, and it will help me out a lot.

Sleep, sweet sleep

2010-08-22T14:55:00.000-06:00

Orkut Myspace Sleep Well Comments & Graphics

Sleep is something that a lot of us take for granted. Yet, when you cannot fall asleep, the desperation is insurmountable.

Generally, I do not have any problems sleeping. I fall asleep fairly quickly, and I can nap without really trying, so I consider myself lucky. Sleep has a huge affect on us. It is when our bodies heal, and one way we get the energy we need to function.

Some impacts of sleep deprivation include poor concentration, poorer judgement, and a higher risk of injury. It can affect your relationships, how you learn, and how you perform. Long term deprivation is associated with high blood pressure, heart problems, a higher risk of stroke, obesity, and Attention Deficit Disorder. It has a direct impact on anxiety and it can become a vicious circle. Not enough sleep can aggravate anxiety, which can then make it more difficult to fall asleep.

Our environment can affect our sleep as well. Having a tv in your bedroom, having a lot of clutter around us, or having bright lights on as we fall asleep and having pets in our bed can disrupt our sleep.

So what can we do? Have a set routine, with specific waking and lights out times. Keeping that routine as much as possible, sleeping in the dark, so our bodies know it’s time to rest. It helps to minimize clutter, as well as getting some exercise every day, but not to exercise too close to bed time. Avoiding caffeine for approximately 6 hours before bed, as well as not eating a big meal right before bed will help encourage our bodies to rest.

Sleep is important, and we don’t realize it until we become deprived. It effects every aspect of our life. And with school starting right away, our sleep routines should be a priority.

Big Sigh

2010-08-08T22:12:00.002-06:00

Unfortunately, I don't seem to have much to say. It will be great when the renovations at the Kwoon are finished, and I am enjoying how it is all coming together. It is wonderful working as a team (although I can't do a whole lot), and coming together as a Kung Fu family. It is slowly coming together, and it's going to be great.

On another note, I am exhausted. A large part is probably because of the major decline in physical training due to injury. Ah well...there is a reason why this is a life long journey to mastery.

Sometimes you just have to stick your neck out...

2010-08-01T11:24:00.002-06:00

A couple of months ago, I stuck my neck out. Or put my foot in the door, or maybe I just threw my words out there and hoped they would stick where I wanted them too.

Last week, my effort bore fruit. I had been wanting to get into the health field, and before I took classes, I sent out an email to the Health Services unit in my building. And all I did was say that if there was ever any openings, I would like to be considered.

This past week, I was considered, and it looks like I will be working over there come September. I am really excited, and looking back, I made the right decision in throwing that email out there. So with that being said, I am really glad that I put myself out there, as change doesn’t happen without you making it happen.

I have known many people that bemoan their situation, and yet do nothing about it. They are just sitting around hoping that the opportunity will just present itself, and it never does. It is up to us to create our opportunities, and sometimes that means making your dreams known, showing up at the right place consistently, and being patient until the right time presents itself.

Take Kung Fu for example. If you don’t show up to class on a regular basis, and make that commitment, you could very well miss out on an opportunity to learn something fantastic. How easy would it be to miss a new way of seeing things from an instructor that hasn’t been to your class before? Or missing the opportunity to learn from someone like Master McNeill? Or even missing the opportunity to put your own sweat and blood into the place you train?

Great things don’t just happen. Great things are made to happen.

Progressing Wisely

2010-07-25T19:15:00.001-06:00

Training has been a challenge for me again over the past 3 weeks, due to 2 broken ribs. But it’s nothing new right? I think that I am finally have things in perspective and am at a point where I am training/ progressing wisely.

With my latest injury, I took some time off. Not completely, as I continued to teach, and practice Tai Chi, but I did not push too hard. I was/ am aware of the impact of pushing too hard, too fast. I have done it many times before. It is difficult not to train, or to see how far you can go before it hurts, and it takes many reminders to take it easy. It’s so important to know when to rest, and when to push, and I am getting better at this. I have many injuries, that have become chronic from pushing too hard too fast, and I can say that it has held me back in the past.

This time, I made sure I took some time to rest, and I stayed engaged in my training by staying involved with the school. It would be really easy to just sit at home and feel sorry for myself, but by going anyway, doing a little training, and by surrounding myself with my Kung Fu family, I managed to stay engaged. Since it’s been 3 weeks since this rib injury, I can actually say that I don’t hurt too much anymore. I still have to be careful, but it is definitely getting better.

Itty Bitty Acres

2010-07-18T18:44:00.000-06:00

This spring, I joined a CSA - Community Supported Agriculture. The idea of locally grown produce, without any chemicals whatsoever, and delivered close to home weekly really appealed to me. The concept is neat - you pay in advance for the season, and then once things are grown, they are harvested and brought to you. It can be a little risky I guess, as you take a chance on the weather like a farmer would. But that risk is worth it.

Interestingly, I had seen these advertised in the US, and within a week or so of discovering those, I found an ad for one here. I was so excited I had to find out more.

It was a decision I am really glad I made. We have only had two deliveries so far, but it tastes better (in my opinion) than store bought organic produce. Maybe it’s because I know it didn’t travel far, and that it was grown with love. I am excited because it is enabling us to eat more veggies this summer, and making an impact on our environment. All it takes is one person, one choice, to change the tide.

Even my kids are excited. When I pulled out a few giant lettuce leaves tonight, their eyes grew large, and the prospect of eating a locally grown salad had them digging right in. I think I have to find a few more recipes, as there is more veggies to come, that we don’t normally eat. But I can’t wait.

www.ittybittyacres.weebly.com

Sometimes

2010-07-11T20:56:00.002-06:00

Sometimes it is hard to stay positive when the injustices of the world are in your face.

Sometimes it is hard to keep trying to make a difference, when it seems to go ignored.

Sometimes it is difficult to stay positive about your training when you have a broken rib, and every movement hurts.

Sometimes it is easy to see things from a different angle, when the usual angle is removed.

Sometimes it is easier to smile, when you focus on the here and now.

Sometimes, it is hard to take a deep breath, but not so to hard relax.

Sometimes going to my happy place is all I need to get through the day.

Sometimes perspective on life happens when we least expect it.

Sometimes your training guides you instead of you guiding it.

Sometimes, maybe all the time, things happen for a reason.

And sometimes a good blog is hard to write. :-(

ACME

2010-07-04T11:14:00.002-06:00

So, another hiccup in my training has presented itself. I am not complaining, as it occurred during class and it was a great one. It’s amazing what can happen when your timing is off, even just for a second. One misjudged step can really impact (haha) things. I laugh at the word impact because that is exactly what happened.

As a blue belt (I think), I misjudged my timing during sparring, and walked into a kick, thus breaking some ribs and permanently changing how I train to this day. Take this same error in timing on Friday, and I walk into a kick again, and injure my ribs on the other side. Oops.

For the most part I would say my timing is pretty good, but obviously I have to work on it more. I know that with all my past injuries, my relationship with the six harmonies has suffered. I don’t mean to complain, as every injury has forced me to focus more on my mental training and that is a vital part of Kung Fu.

I was part of the Canada Day demo on Thursday, and it felt really good. Obviously the day before this latest rib injury. It has been a while since I was able to put my whole self into a form, without any real pain. The demo was in my opinion, pure awesomeness. It was great to see a whole group of us perform, and the crowd was fantastic. I really enjoy doing demo’s (even though my stomach was a mess that morning). Both Sifu Playter’s did a great job of the demo, as did all the participants. Way to go guys!!!

Alpha

2010-06-27T22:32:00.002-06:00

Yesterday was our annual boot camp, and while I didn’t make it to the morning seminars, I was there for the afternoon and the couple that I was most looking forward to.

I missed the Alpha training by Karen Chambers the last time she was out 5 years ago, so it was really great to take part yesterday. I discovered that I have been using a lot of these techniques already, however I came away with some insight and ideas. And the opportunity to try one presented itself tonight.

My daughters were exhausted from the weekend Kung Fu Kids camp. Which is good. They played hard, and had a great time. My youngest daughter is a great sleeper, so while the storm tonight presented a little challenge for her to fall asleep in, it was an enormous obstacle for my oldest.

While lying in bed with her, I decided to try some guided meditation to help her relax, and hopefully drift off to sleep. She found her happy place, and it seemed to work - her breathing slowed down, and I could feel her whole body loosen up. However, those efforts were little for the lasting storm. Whenever I thought she was asleep, a clap of thunder would wake her again. I discovered though, that while guiding her meditation, I was also relaxed. The good thing is, I think I can use this with her on a more regular basis, and maybe, just maybe she can start doing it herself.

Harder than I thought

2010-06-20T16:50:00.002-06:00

Somehow, I thought this week’s blog would be simple to write, but I am having some difficulties putting my thoughts into something coherent.

We have put the first three parts of the Tai Chi Long form together over the past couple of weeks, and I love it. I have had some problems in the past with putting them together with any flow, and now it is a little easier. I find that when we are learning one part, I tend to focus on that, and let the rest of the form slide. Shame on me. I am hoping that I can keep this up, and add part four on without forgetting anything. I really love Tai Chi, and the sense of peace it gives me.

I actually get that peace from all my forms - mostly the breathing ones. It feels great to just do the form, without thinking of anything. It always gives me a chuckle when I come out of the void - whether it’s from some injury yelling at me, or whatever brings me back. I always feel so lost. I forget where I am in the form, or what form I was doing in the first place.

I know I have to keep progressing wisely, so as to keep my injuries quiet, and hopefully I can reconnect the six harmonies.

Stealthy Snakes Slither Silently

2010-06-13T21:37:00.001-06:00

Where am I, and what am I doing?

I am currently exploring a couple of avenues career wise. I have a meeting with another unit on Wednesday, and am looking into possibly taking a course through distance learning. Where these could lead me, I have no idea. But I do know, that I need to push forward. I will be acting supervisor for my current unit for a 4 month stint starting September, but I am not sure that it is what I truly want.

I have been trying to rest my body a bit - perhaps to heal a little. I guess it’s going alright, but like everything else it’s a journey. It’s a journey fraught with frustration and small joys. I just have to remember to celebrate the small joys, and shrug off the frustration.

I am here, and I am moving forward.

Superstar

2010-06-06T21:56:00.000-06:00

I am sitting outside right now, and enjoying the sunshine (and wind). It seems like a windy year so far. Oh well.

I missed the parade yesterday, but I knew that if I chose to walk it, I would do some damage to my already gibbled body. I heard a lot of students showed up for it, and I am glad. We also cleaned up outside the kwoon yesterday - picked garbage, cut the grass, and hosed down the buildings. It was fun - something my kids were really excited about doing. That always impresses me when they see the impact we make when we pick up garbage. Every spring after the snow melts, and they see all the trash on the ground, they are eager to get out there and clean it up.

Speaking of kids, it is amazing how life with them changes. I remember when they were small, and thinking that I couldn’t wait until they grew up more and were more independent. Then things would be easier. Boy was I wrong. It seems to get harder the older they get. I miss the days when they were smaller, everything was black and white, and the answers were so much simpler. Now there are a lot of shades of grey, I question my decisions a lot more, they question my decisions a lot more, and the answers are not so simple anymore. They are growing up right before my eyes, and it seems that if I blink, I miss something. Don’t me wrong, they bring me joy every day, and I am proud of them and their accomplishments. Maybe I am just getting older.

At what point are they old enough to make their own decisions? When do they truly understand consequences, and that when I push them when they don’t want to be pushed, I am helping them to become accountable adults one day? I worry about resentment towards me for being stubborn about not quitting, and I worry if I am doing the right thing. At what point do I let them make more of their own decisions? I made a decision today that came from my heart, and while I question it, I know it was the right choice.

Something else I have thought about this week is how every family is different, and that I am thankful for the one I have. Every family has it’s own dynamics, and it’s own rituals. We have our way of doing things, and our way of supporting each other. We are as individuals unique, and yet we are almost extensions of each other. I see traits in my children, that I also see in myself, and yet there are traits that are completely their own. We are a sum of our parts, and we are special.

It's empty in there

2010-05-30T20:30:00.004-06:00

I am not sure what to write about today. I am still figuring out how to keep training while my body heals (if that’s possible), without getting frustrated. I am surrounded by like minded people, all of whom inspire me with their discipline and focus, so staying motivated shouldn’t be a problem. But it is a struggle, with some days more difficult than others. Oh well, one day at a time.

On another unrelated note, the news has been depressing lately. There seem to have been a lot of incidents involving children in our surrounding area, and it is depressing. I know it is something that maybe seems disproportionate right now compared to other crimes, when it just might all seem to be happening at once. It can get hard to bear, and hard to keep believing we can make a difference, when there is so much apathy in the world.

But I know deep down, that as long as we keep spreading awareness, and keep trying, that difference can happen, and will. I just watched this video as it always makes me smile.

www.wherethehellismatt.com/videos.shtml?fbid=XgvV1bycc5q

A marionette, not batman.

2010-05-23T12:42:00.002-06:00

When I think of the six harmonies, I think about a marionette puppet. One movement, creates another, where every movement is connected. If I move my hands, my feet also need to move - together, but separate. My knees and elbows move, together but separate. My hips and shoulders, also together but separate.

I have been noticing this mostly in Tai Chi, but there I struggle too, because of my injuries. My body cannot quite move in harmony, as I need to protect (or baby) the pains that occur when I try. However, moving slowly and with absolute purpose, has made me much more aware of how my body needs to move.

Yesterday, I found myself thinking more about my internal Kung Fu. I cannot seem to harmonize myself physically yet, so I need to focus more on my internal harmonies. My spirit should be connected to my intention, my intention should be connected to my chi, and my chi to my strength. It is challenging in that I have to compromise myself physically, and so I find myself not as mindful in my purpose, but if I go slower, I can see a direction. And from this direction, I know I can mindfully attempt to harmonize internally.

Not to complain, as my list of injuries has only made me more determined and more grateful for my training. Isn’t it interesting how injuries can pile up without even being aware? I still have a bum ankle ( whatever), I broke my baby toe 3 weeks ago, and I did something strange to my left hip playing freeze tag 2 weeks ago. (I’m probably an idiot for playing tag in the first place...). Then there is the tendonitis from work in both wrists. I am thinking I should name my pains, since they are hanging around for so long.

I am also thinking that by focusing more on my internal training, I can maybe influence how I react to the extra stresses I have been feeling. I am not batman. I have come to terms with that, although he is really cool. I don’t have superpowers, but I do have control over how I react. What I decide I can live with, and what I decide I can change. I can decide how I treat others, as this affects how I am treated. Do I want to be a doormat? Do I want to create boundaries so I am not stepped on? I have to make a choice as to when to be a friend, and when to be a coworker to be treated with respect.

Kung Fu comes into play here. When I need to destress, I have to step aside, and focus on being mindful of my breathing. My tool is to simply go through a breathing form in my head. Say Lung, or 18 Temple Motions. Even Tai Chi. It doesn’t always work as preventative though, and I tend to use it more after the fact. But it is something I can do to focus more internally.

Something to think about too..(yes, my rant is almost done), that when we are harmonized, our flow is there. When our bodies move in harmony, we are connected. Our chi is manifested and our art is true.

To all Mothers...

2010-05-09T12:46:00.001-06:00

I am...Batman!

2010-05-02T14:03:00.001-06:00

Okay, maybe I am not Batman, but I think he’s my favourite superhero.

Yesterday we had our annual Tiger Challenge Tournament at the Tri Leisure Centre. As usual it was inspiring for me, and it was truly great to see our students compete in the different divisions.

I am really proud of all the kids (and adults) for all of their hard work. My challenge came while judging the Lil Leopards/ Tiny Tigers. They all tried so hard, and they were so darn cute, that it made it tough sometimes to pick a winner.

It was great to see the Lion Dance competition although I didn’t really see it since I was busy with the little kids. However, I heard it, and it seemed to mesmerize everyone around us - including the kids who we were trying to get to compete.

All in all, it was a great day - and I really appreciated how everyone pulled together. My only complaint? I broke my baby toe again - and I didn’t even compete! Stupid chair, stupid me. I am sure Batman wouldn’t have done that!

That’s all for now folks...Tune in next week for more exciting(?) adventures.

Short

2010-04-25T21:13:00.003-06:00

This will be short, as the tendonitis in my right wrist is screaming at me, and I am typing clumsily with my left hand.

It's been great to see so many at open training lately, and the focus and drive to train. The tournament is a really great tool, and I am really excited to see everyone's hard work pay off.

Good luck to everyone, and I hope you all have a really great time. It is a rewarding experience, and I always find it inspiring.

Until Saturday...Cheers.

Turmoil

2010-04-14T21:42:00.002-06:00

I find myself in a place where I am not sure where to go. I am feeling a lot of stress at work, as there are some major changes happening, and I don’t know if I should take a step forward.

Basically, my unit will be without a manager for who knows how long, and there is an offer for one of us to act in that position for several months. We are down to half staff in our office, so there are only a few of us that will probably apply. And when I say us, I don’t necessarily mean I.

I have acted in this position while my manager was on holidays on several occasions, and I have managed staff in my past, so that really isn’t an issue. I just question how well I can lead, as the people I would have to supervise have been coworkers for 5 years. Those dynamics could create a lot of stress, but I suppose it could also be rewarding.

There is also someone in my office who will probably apply, but I really doubt how well I can work for her. She is a really nice person, but I had a difficult time working with her in a team in the past. I question how well I could handle her as a boss. I feel like I am losing continuity there, and with the flexibility I have there now, I am afraid of losing it all. There is also a chance she could be really good at this too...but I am afraid to find out.

I was just rereading this, and I have a thought. In a way, my journey to black belt was similar. I was surrounded by fellow sihings for a while, and they were people who were my peers, until I challenged and passed my black belt grading. Suddenly, I was a leader, and different from my previous fellow sihings. So how did I handle that? I simply did what I did, and hopefully while finding my new path, I inspired those around me to do the same. I led quietly, and still do. Maybe I can apply this at work as well.

I am who I am. I recognize my weaknesses, and have to work a little harder to recognize my strengths. Sometimes it is much easier to focus on the weaknesses, and to forget about the strengths. My family believes in me, so I should too. If I choose, I can look at this as an opportunity to grow, not as losing my way.

Is this a copout?

2010-04-11T22:51:00.002-06:00

Yes, maybe it's a copout, but it's a good one. I have many things to write, but I can't seem to get any down, so here is a Dr. Seuss quote that I like quite a lot. In fact, it's the best one I've got!

Anyway...

You have brains in your head.
You have feet in your shoes.
You can steer yourself in any direction you choose.
You’re on your own.
And you know what you know.
You are the guy who’ll decide where to go.
~Dr. Seuss

Keester Melody

2010-04-04T12:34:00.000-06:00

It has been a weird week. I haven’t been at Kung Fu except for yesterday’s Tai Chi and open training. Other than Christmas, and I guess previous spring breaks, I haven’t been away from Kung fu this long.

I have missed it though, but at the same time it was nice to be home with my girls. We have been at Kung fu every day for the past 4 years (since I moved to Spruce Grove), and taking these breaks seem strange. It is a little different when we go on holidays because we actually go away. I managed to get some things accomplished around the house however (some spring cleaning), and things that I tend to put off because I am just ready to relax by the time the kids are in bed. It has been a good week though - time with my kids, and time for me.

I can’t wait for Kung Fu again.

On another note, I am stepping out of my comfort zone tomorrow. I somehow had myself convinced that I wouldn’t have to meet anyone new, and that somehow by joining the CSA, my veggies would miraculously end up in my fridge. I am not a social person, and meeting people is not something I look forward to. So tomorrow, I am meeting the lady whose produce I am going to be buying this summer. Her farm is called Itty Bitty Acres, and for a smallish price, I will have fresh, pesticide and herbicide free produce delivered weekly. I don’t want to go tomorrow, but I know it’s good for me to go out of my comfort zone, and who knows, maybe I will find a new friend.

Excellent!

2010-03-28T14:20:00.000-06:00

Last weekend, my girls and I walked in the Trek for Tourette. It was a lot of fun, and I was amazed at the quality time it gave us as a family. My oldest told me several times that it was the best day. We walked for something we care about, we did it together - a whole 5 km, and found a great bunch of sticks and rocks along the way. The sun was out, and it was just a wonderful day.

Today, we participated in the annual Forms Marathon. The girls have colds so their stamina wasn’t up to par, but we did it, and it was a lot of fun. I did at least 10 reps of each of my forms (except when I went from one into another half way through without realizing it), and it just felt really good to do this. The girls learned from each other, and I learned a lot about my forms.

I buggered up my ankle yesterday (again), but it held up alright. Of course, doing forms for an hour and a half, full out wasn’t an option. But it was nice to go slow, concentrate on my technique and stances. A couple caused me a little pain, but moving carefully, deliberately, and slowly helped a lot.

It was a fantastic opportunity to push myself to excellence - it isn’t too often that you get to practice your forms solid like this. It was wonderful to see everyone come out to participate as well...What a family!

Mental vs. Physical

2010-03-14T13:27:00.002-06:00

Next week I am walking 5 km in the Trek for Tourette. I have never undertaken anything like this, although I am currently not seeing it as a big deal. Am I underestimating the trek? Will my ankle be okay? Is my fitness up to par?

I feel that I am in pretty good shape for the shape I am in. I do a lot of walking everyday, although I don’t log it, so maybe it isn’t as much as I think. I don’t do any formal training when it comes to walking distances, but I feel that it won’t be a problem.

But will it? I think that perhaps this week, I should prepare. How though? I have pedometer, so that might give me an idea of how much I am actually walking. I have to be more mindful this week - Am I walking with a purpose and in the moment? Or am I walking with my mind on a hundred other things, and only putting one foot in front of the other?

I will need to drink water during this walk. How am I going to accomplish this? Maybe I will wear a backpack, so that I can put my water there, or should I just carry my bottle? Something to think about. Or am I making a mountain out of a molehill? I think maybe I am just thinking about it too much.

I know mentally, I am a little anxious about the walk. Not the walk itself, but the experience. I don’t know what to expect, and so feel a bit unprepared, and unable to do so. But perhaps that will make it more meaningful to me, and will keep me engaged in it. I do know this however. It is for a good cause, and any awareness I raise is a good thing.

The couple of students at Silent River with Tourette’s inspire me, so therefore, this is an important event for me.

Next Sunday, March 21st, at 2:00. I will be there, and I will be walking.

Leadership and lollipops

2010-03-07T12:13:00.002-07:00

How do lollipops fit in with leadership? They don’t really, but it is a sweet thing when you see your child or student take leadership seriously.

We all have different ways of expressing our leadership. But the common denominator is through example. We can talk the talk all we like, but unless we are seen doing what we say, the words mean nothing.

Some of us are quiet leaders, in that we don’t spend much time talking about what we are doing, and are mostly just doing. We may not even be aware of it, but people see what we do, and they aspire to do the same. For example, you could see a person picking up garbage and without them saying anything, you find yourself picking up garbage too.

Others are more vocal leaders. They talk the talk, and walk the walk. Their words alone are inspiring, but when you couple that with actions that support the words, the leadership is more noticeable.

I think we all have our leadership strengths, whether we can outwardly pinpoint them or not. I believe that through Kung Fu, we are building leaders everyday.

As a parent, I feel that I need to set an example for my children. I follow through with what I say, and I try very hard not to contradict myself. That is a challenge sometimes, because I am not always in the right mindset to be as firm as I need to. As a student, in order to have the privilege to learn, I need to live up to my instructors’ and my expectations. I know that my instructors will be less willing to teach me, if I am all talk, and not willing to take initiative. As an instructor, I need to show my students, that I am going to do what I say, I am more than willing to admit I don’t know something, and I am happy to do pushups or whatever right alongside them.

As a parent, I believe strongly that my children know right from wrong, and I believe strongly that Kung Fu reinforces that. I have to accept that they won’t always make the right choice, but with a safe home and a safe place to train, they will learn.

Consistency is important in leadership as well. How can you lead if you only do what you say sometimes? Or don’t always follow through on your commitments? I know that sometimes, it isn’t always easy. I happened to give out my first grounding two weeks ago. I can’t begin to say how difficult it was, and how much more difficult it was to stick to my guns. Maybe I overreacted, but I am determined that both my children and I learn from this. I believe that I am raising leaders, and even through a grounding I saw leadership. There wasn’t any shown in the incident, but I know it’s there. However, I wonder how much is due to my parenting alone, or how much Kung Fu has influenced that?

Being a leader, is more than just coming to class and doing what you are supposed to be doing. It is trying to do your best, be your best, at all times. Home, school, Kung Fu, and within our community. It is about follow through, consistency, passion, and hard work.

Something to say...

2010-02-27T22:22:00.002-07:00

I have some things to say, but I don’t feel I have the voice to do so right now. I have found myself thinking about where I am at. I find teaching challenging, and rewarding, but it can also be frustrating. I know that sometimes I forget about the strengths I have in front of me, and in doing so I get overwhelmed and lose sight of the big picture.

I have to rethink a few things, re-calibrate so to speak, and to do that, I have to let go of some preconceived expectations, and start at ground zero. This takes some courage on my part, and I have to let go just a little.

I need to use the strengths that the others around me bring. I need to recognize them, celebrate them, and cooperate with them. I have to stop looking for things that aren’t there, I have to let go of things, and embrace the good things that are coming.

There are times where I feel I am running in place, and not making any headway. And when the rut starts to get deeper, it’s time to recognize it and jump out. I think I am jumping out...or maybe I am just recognizing it so that I can have the power to do something about it.

Wild Rumpus

2010-02-21T18:59:00.001-07:00

I feel really drained right now, so I am not sure what to write about. However, this is a commitment that I intend on keeping. Journaling once a week, is something I have done for a couple of years now, and it is really good for me.

I am feeling some relief that the Chinese New Year Banquet - Black Belt Promotion is done. I really enjoyed all the work preparing for it, don’t get me wrong, but I have missed the continuity of our regular schedule.

My ankle has been holding up fairly well lately, so I am thinking that now that the banquet is over, I can perhaps push myself harder again. I haven’t really trained too hard on my forms and such for quite a while, so it will be fantastic to get to it again. The only drawback I seem to suffer from right now, is the tendonitis in my right wrist from work. It hurts to do much with it, and my pushups have suffered a little. I guess it could be a lot worse though. All of my body (injured) parts could be flaring up right now. I am in pretty good shape for the shape I am in.

Just after the candidates received their black belts, while we were all standing up on stage (and just before the entire school came up for the picture), I had a phrase pop into my head. It took a lot of willpower not to say it out loud since it was probably not appropriate. If anyone has seen and/ or read “Where the Wild Things Are”, this will make sense. For some reason, I wanted to yell out, “Let the wild rumpus start!”

Yup, I am a little nuts. Or maybe just tired. Or something in between.

Everyone worked hard for yesterday, and I am proud to have been a part of it. The whole day ( from beginning to end) was absolutely fantastic. I belong to an amazing family.

Year of the Tiger

2010-02-14T17:36:00.000-07:00

I have a couple of places that I could go with this blog today, so it will be interesting to see it when I am done my weekly ramble.

It is year of the Tiger today. New beginnings, a fresh start. Or something like that. I am hoping that this year is a better one for me injury wise. I feel like I have not trained very hard at all during the past 12 months and I know I still have to be careful with my training. I do have tendenitits in my right wrist from work, and I am hoping that that disappears soon. January was difficult as well. I pulled a muscle in my right side ( rib area,) so for a couple of weeks, I couldn’t do much at all. And then when that was all healed, I put my back out and couldn’t do much for another week, and then of course my wrist has set me back somewhat as well. But February has been pretty good so far. And I am hoping that after the banquet next Saturday, I can start training harder again. I have so many things that I want to do...

I am interested in learning more about kids fitness programs, so that I can incorporate them into my classes. I want to work on my double broad sword form some more and complete it, and I want to practice a lot more too. Hopefully my elderly body cooperates with me... :-)

Heart and Stroke Month

2010-02-07T11:00:00.000-07:00

This month is Heart and Stroke month. Heart Disease is defined as a group of conditions affecting the structure and the functions of the heart. It is preventable and manageable.

A stroke is a sudden loss of brain function. It happens when there is a disruption of blood flow to the brain, which causes cells to die. Blood provides oxygen and nutrients to the brain and without these damage occurs.

Some things you can do to to control your risk factors for both heart disease and stroke...

Don’t smoke, be physically active, know your blood pressure, eat a diet low in saturated and trans fats, maintain a healthy weight, limit alcohol use, and reducing your stress, can play a significant role in reducing your risk of heart disease.

Healthy choices are very important in preventing and managing these. This includes incorporating the four food groups as often as you can, with an emphasis on fruits and vegetables, being physically active (Kung Fu is a big help), but even walking for 20 - 30 minutes a day. Reducing your stress is a big one, which can also done through Kung fu, as is meditation, journalling, and finding time for yourself. Also knowing your family history will go a long way in understanding and managing your risk factors.

The following website is full of information and I recommend it...

http://www.heartandstroke.ab.ca/site/c.lqIRL1PJJtH/b.3650753/k.BDFA/Home.htm

While February is dedicated to Heart Disease and Stroke, we should be aware each and every day.

I had another blog...

2010-01-31T19:14:00.003-07:00

I had written something else today, but am feeling like I am repeating myself so I have decided not to post it yet.

Instead, I want to take a moment to reflect on our Kung Fu family. I am surrounded by people who are passionate about similar things, and give me strength just by being there. It is always encouraging to see someone in the Kwoon, pushing themselves, challenging themselves, and feeling good about it. Sweating together, is somehow a bonding experience, that only a fellow martial artist can understand. Ok, workout junkies probably feel a similar way...

I love knowing that I can count on the support of everyone at the Kwoon, whether they know they are giving it or not. I love knowing I can push myself there and not be judged. Our Kung Fu family is made up of a lot of families, and individuals that are all unique, and all bring a strength and continuity. There is comradeship, friendship, healthy competition, and a sort of glue that seems to hold us all together.

Together, we make a difference every day. That evidence is in our local community, and the way we tend to band together.

Here is a quote I like - it doesn’t quite fit with the blog, but whatever, that’s cool. Enjoy.

I have heard there are troubles of more than one kind.
Some come from ahead and some come from behind.
But I’ve bought a big bat. I’m all ready you see.
Now my troubles are going to have troubles with me!
~Dr. Seuss

Everything I need to know, I learned through Kung Fu...(In no particular order)

2010-01-24T12:05:00.002-07:00

There is nothing like a good workout
There is comfort in being around like minded individuals
Pushing yourself to your limits is truly rewarding
A badge of honour has nothing to do with rank
A badge of honour usually involves a spectacular bruise or blood
Actually, every injury incurred during training is pretty much a badge of honour
Maybe I am a little twisted about my badges of honour, but it proves to me that I pushed myself.
I have learned to listen to my body - most of the time. Sometimes my brain thinks it knows better.
Progressing wisely is very much a mental task, which involves a Kung Fu collective to keep it in front of me.
My Kung Fu family is one you can always count on.
Lion Dance practices can be really, really fun.
And really taxing.
Did I mention the laughs?
While chaotic, there is a certain peace when in a scrunched up circle of 3 and 4 year olds, with their small enticing faces in yours.
And in that chaos, I can also find the child in me.
You are never too old to play dodgeball.
Learning never stops.
You can learn from anyone, from any rank, from any age.
Dedication will get you far.
As will passion.
Kung Fu has opened up my eyes to my community, and to the world.
Empathy and compassion are values that everyone should develop.
Being humble and egoless, are things that all of humanity needs to strive for.
Self defense is more than kicking and punching.
It starts within - and involves making the world a better place for everyone.
We are all the same inside.
You are also never too old to play tag.
It is never too late to start something new, or to find a new challenge.
Self improvement is a lifelong journey.
There is always a way to make a positive difference.

There is more, but I will save it for another post, another day...

There’s something fantastic about that...

2010-01-17T12:40:00.002-07:00

I love Lion Dancing. The process of coming up with a dance for the Chinese New Year is an interesting one, and it is constantly evolving, dissolving, and evolving again. I am thrilled to be a part of it this year as well. I am enjoying the challenge, the sweat and the friendly bantering. It is amazing how much work goes into creating a dance, as is the practice. But it is so rewarding to be a part of it. Not to mention it’s a lot fun.

What happens when you get Kwan Kung, two buddha’s, a bench and a bottle of fake alcohol? You’ll find out February 20th... It will be something fantastic!